Random Blogs
I have a confession to make. I have been using that hideous navbar at the top of the blog pages to find random blogs. I have found several so far worthy of my bookmarking them and returning at various points to read them. A school teacher in Texas, a 19 year old writer in New Hampshire, a guy that I suspect may be a friend of mine from high school. All very interesting and witty in my opinion. Anyway, I'm going off on a tangent
Tonight, as I sat here all alone with a cup of ginger ale and a cup of cocoa pebbles, I decided to go randomly skimming through blogs again. I've read all of my friend's updates already, and I even built a new blog to post the installments of my fanfiction as I edit them in. Lo and behold, about five blogs in I hit the jackpot. I read this man's ENTIRE blog, and I just have to say, he makes so much sense to me, like a kindred spirit. Twenty-three and worn down by life and people, he is alot like me in many ways. And when I say "me", I mean the real me. Not the perky, friendly facade I put on so that I don't hurt any of my friends feelings. I mean the one that says what she thinks, and doesn't allow people to bullshit their way through life. Wow, I miss that side of me. It comes out so rarely because the people around me just can't seem to handle it.
I wish sometimes I didn't worry so about hurting the feelings of the people around me. I would love to be able to say what I think, knowing that I truely meant it deep down inside. However, I knew far too well the catch in one's throat when you realize someone thinks you are any number of things that have negative connotations. So I will have to sedate myself with sour flavored skittles and cranberry juice.
Which reminds me. Tomorrow I start my training. Though, for the most part, I loathe running, I think I will find a lot of enjoyment in this.
Tonight, as I sat here all alone with a cup of ginger ale and a cup of cocoa pebbles, I decided to go randomly skimming through blogs again. I've read all of my friend's updates already, and I even built a new blog to post the installments of my fanfiction as I edit them in. Lo and behold, about five blogs in I hit the jackpot. I read this man's ENTIRE blog, and I just have to say, he makes so much sense to me, like a kindred spirit. Twenty-three and worn down by life and people, he is alot like me in many ways. And when I say "me", I mean the real me. Not the perky, friendly facade I put on so that I don't hurt any of my friends feelings. I mean the one that says what she thinks, and doesn't allow people to bullshit their way through life. Wow, I miss that side of me. It comes out so rarely because the people around me just can't seem to handle it.
I wish sometimes I didn't worry so about hurting the feelings of the people around me. I would love to be able to say what I think, knowing that I truely meant it deep down inside. However, I knew far too well the catch in one's throat when you realize someone thinks you are any number of things that have negative connotations. So I will have to sedate myself with sour flavored skittles and cranberry juice.
Which reminds me. Tomorrow I start my training. Though, for the most part, I loathe running, I think I will find a lot of enjoyment in this.
posted by Meredith @ 9:45 PM
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