Song

Hey! I've been blogging for over a month now! I didn't realize it until I was just now looking through all my entries in the Editing panel. Sorry, I had a typo in an early post that needed fixing.

Right now I'm listening to Merril Bainbridge. I had forgotten just how haunting and beautiful her voice is in some of her music. I am so glad I got this CD ages ago when she was popular for the short time she was.

The song I'm listening to right now is 'State of Mind'

Where do I go from here
Or am I just like a clock spinning round
Everything seems unclear
Confusion is raising it's head
And I can't make a sound
I feel it tearing at my soul
While I sleep
I feel it driving me to something I'll regret
What if I make the change
What if I loose all my courage
This time
Everything seems so strange
Try but I can't seem to make a decision
That's right
I feel it pounding like a drum
Inside my brain
I feel it
If it doesn't stop
I'll go insane
I feel it
Tearing at my soul
While I'm asleep
I feel it
Driving me to something I'll regret
I feel it
Pounding like a drum inside my brain
I feel it
I feel it if it doesn't stop
I'll go insane

It's a very bitter-sweet song. It reminds me of the feeling of striving to break free of the chains of a depressing situation. Like the despair you feel when a loved one dies, that weight you feel on your chest and heart, and you just can't break free to the other side you know is there. You can see the light at the end of the tunnel, but you just can't run fast enough to get back into the daylight. You push and strive and pray that with that next step you'll be free of the chains, but they don't lift. You are just bound in chains and running as hard as you can with no end in sight.

Wow. I just re-read what I wrote, and that sounds seriously depressing. No wonder several of my friends think I'm the 'tortured artist' type.