Heartache

Is there a cure for heartache? I sincerely hope there is. I feel like my heart is being ripped into little peices before my eyes. I know I am only making myself feel worse by listening to 'Whiskey Lullaby'. Mostly because of this verse:

"The Rumors flew
But nobody knew how much she blamed herself
For years and years
She tried to hide the whiskey on her breath
She finally drank her pain away a little at a time
But she never could get drunk enough to get him off her mind
Until the night....
She put the bottle to her head and pulled the trigger..."

That is how I feel right now. I want oblivion. I want solace. I just want the pain to end. How is it that I hurt so many of the people in my life? Am I just special that way? Is this some sick cosmic joke? Jason, Jer, Adam, Lee. I keep trying to push everyone away and all I end up doing is hurting them. And hurting myself.

Music: Brad Paisley ft. Allison Krauss - Whiskey Lullaby
Mood: Heartbroken, Grieving, and Torn