Problem

I have a serious problem. I just found out that I was put under suicide watch without my knowledge my freshman year of high school. Apparently it was a joint thing with my councilor and my assistant principal. They can't tell me what's in my file because it's sealed now. This ticks me off to no end!

I know that it has no bearing on my future work or anything like that. I just don't like the idea of people not letting me know when something is wrong. I've spent too many years talking to psychaitrists and family therapists. All of it was for nothing. It was a problem that I was unable to solve myself. I needed help. I only wish I had gotten it sooner. If they had told even my parents about this, my parents might have pressured me into telling them what was actually happening. I mean, I've only recently told my mother about the sexual abuse I endured. It was hard, knowing that she didn't know what was wrong for all those years. Some of my actions seem a little more understandable now to her.