Different

I'm in a weird mood. And when I say weird... I mean I've had tons of sugar, my sugar high is wearing off, and I'm now contemplating where lint fits into the grand scheme of things.


Have you ever had a friend that, had circumstances been different, you know the two of you would have most likely been great companions for life? I have a friend like that. And my heart is breaking for him. I consider him very close for someone I have never actually met in person. He is in love with a girl and it's breaking his heart. I wish I could be there to comfort him and take his mind off of her. He is very dear to me. Yet, with the circumstances and the settings life has given he and I, I am perfectly content with it being a plutonic relationship.

Normally, I can be quite fickle, and might not be "okay" with a completely plutonic friendship, but for some reason, I am with him. I don't completely understand it. I don't think I want to either. Part of me is afraid that if I question this good friendship too much, I will destroy what is there. I will find that it was a fragile friendship in the first place, and my questions just put too much weight on the too delicate lace. As if mere questions could rip us apart as friends.

As I said before, I am in a weird mood. I think I'll go think and clean now.

Music: Hans Zimmer - To Know My Enemy
Mood: Contemplative