I'm Not Sorry

I've been listening to a new song. Crossfade's 'Cold' lyrics:

Looking back at me,
I see that i never really got it right,
I never stop to think of you.
I'm always wrapped up in things i can not win

You are the antidote that gets me by,
something strong like a drug that gets me high.

[Chorus]
What i really meant to say,
is i'm sorry for the way, i am.
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so cold

What i really meant to say,
is i'm sorry for the way, i am.
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so...

Cold to you, i'm sorry about all the lies
maybe in a different light,
you could see me stand on my own again,
cause now i can see me.

You are the antidote that got me by,
something strong like a drug that got me high.

Chorus

I never meant to be so cold

I never really wanted you to see,
the screwed up side of me that i keep,
locked inside of me so deep,
it always seems to get to me,
i never really wanted you to go
,so many things you should have known,
i guess for me there's just no hope.
I never meant to be so cold.

Chorus


And after hearing this song, I've realized that I'm not sorry for who I am. If people don't like me for who I am, that's fine with me. They don't have to like me. The only person who has to like me is Me. In ways, I really identify with parts of the verses. I feel bad that I am often wrapped up in other things, and I know I don't always get things right. I have lied. I have decieved and manipulated. I don't like that side of myself, but it's still part of me. I've had to take time to accept it, and I refuse to apologize to anyone for it.

Music: Crossfade - Cold
Mood: Bitchy