Sigh

I am shaking I am so upset right now.

My life feels like it's falling apart. I'm glad I count Brian among my friends, because apparently he's the only one who's here for me right now.

I don't even know where to start, but I know where to end. I don't know what I'm going to be doing with my life. Only God knows where I will be a month from now. And I feel like the worst kind of bitch for hanging up on Jeremy when I was on the phone with him earlier. It's no excuse that I was upset. And while he did do something that made me upset, where did the serenity and the calm nature that I normally keep go? Jon is the only person I used to explode at. Now... I guess I don't know anymore.