Romney

My grandfather died early Thrusday afternoon. I love him and miss him. I am flying to Houston in about five hours, and will then drive to New Mexico with my family for the funeral. It is a hard time for my entire family. Please keep us in your prayers.

In a way, I am happy to see Poppy (my Grandfather, Romney) off from this world. He is with my Grandmother (MaaMaw, Penny) now. Poppy has spent the last, well, as long as I can remember, on oxygen. He developed diabetes before I was born, and smoked until the day MaaMaw died of cancer when I was five. His health has been declining for several years now, and we knew that time was growing short. I am lucky I got to see him in 2002 after I graduated high school. He is in a far better place. I am not angry that he is gone, but that does not mean I hurt any less. I know that the pain will pass and I will feel whole again. In a way, I think God knew how he was suffering here on Earth with failing health and missing Penny these past fifteen years. He never quite got over her. She was his true love. I will wear yellow roses in my hair on my wedding day in honor of them both. They were MaaMaw's favorite flowers, and they are mine as well.

Now I am in tears and can no longer see the screen. Know that I only feel the pain, because I feel the love as well.

Music: Evanescence - Hello
Mood: Grieving