Burn the Pain Away

After a draining fight with a close friend, I took a shower to give myself time to think. The scalding water did nothing to burn the pain away, and no matter how hard I scrubbed I still can't wash away the things I said tonight. I know he'll forgive me (he always does), but for the first time I don't want forgiveness. I want this whole sick painful cycle to stop. That is it. The only thing I want on this earth right now is to stop fighting with my friend. However, the water couldn't take away the words he heard tonight, or the lingering feeling of self-disgust. I'm just left with my own thoughts and pain.

Music: None
Mood: Dark