Small Talk

In the past month, I've been through a very hard time with one of my friends. He tells me that he understands that it was as emotionally trying for me as it was for him. His actions however, speak differently.

The other day he accused me of only having 'small talk' with him anymore. I was floored and thought to myself 'of course we only have small talk anymore. This is the time to heal.' But does he really want time to heal? I'm inclined to think he doesn't, because he constantly brings up this ordeal we've been through in our friendship. This is the kind of thing you need months of emotional healing time to recover from. Months. I would say that most likely it will be six months before he and I can speak about this ordeal. I want to talk to him and continue to be a part of his life. However, we have to talk about safe subjects until we can handle the harder.

Why can't he understand this? I love him and want to continue to be a part of his life, but it has to be a part that we can each live with!

Music: The Servant - Orchesta
Mood: Hurt