Thrusdays
I never did get the hang of Thursdays...
I am back to revisiting my old dear friend, Apathy. Or rather, it is visiting me. Do not fear, because I am dealing with it quite well, and will overcome it soon.
Yesterday I finally came to terms with the end of a romantic relationship I should have been over close to 5 months ago. I will not say it is the end of our relationship in general because he is still a close friend of mine. I only wish I had gotten to know him this well while we were in high school. I could have used a true friend like him in my corner during those years. However, I know he's on my side now, and frankly, now is what really matters. My only lingering concern is that due to my surprize at hearing he was dating again he will think I am angry with him or that the heartbreak I suffered is a reason for guilt on his part. In all honesty, though I will confess I have suffered heartbreak, it will not be the end of me and my heart mends very quickly (probably due in part to the fact that I know that he won't stop caring for me as a friend, even if he did stop caring for me as a girlfriend).
On to lighter subjects! Today I get to go in and re-sign my lease with my apartment people. I do not relish the thought of going back into the office which I escaped a mere two years ago. I may be taking my Paxil early today because I start to feel panic rising anytime I think about the year of stress and tears I spent working there after high school. ... Do I have any period of time in my life that I don't have panic attacks about?! Yes, yes I do. There was that three weeks between Fall Semester of 2002 and Spring Semester of 2003. That was a nice time.
Anyway, I'm off to brave the offices of Delview Properties, LLC and then to have lunch.
Music: None, I fear
Mood: Pretty Damned Good
I am back to revisiting my old dear friend, Apathy. Or rather, it is visiting me. Do not fear, because I am dealing with it quite well, and will overcome it soon.
Yesterday I finally came to terms with the end of a romantic relationship I should have been over close to 5 months ago. I will not say it is the end of our relationship in general because he is still a close friend of mine. I only wish I had gotten to know him this well while we were in high school. I could have used a true friend like him in my corner during those years. However, I know he's on my side now, and frankly, now is what really matters. My only lingering concern is that due to my surprize at hearing he was dating again he will think I am angry with him or that the heartbreak I suffered is a reason for guilt on his part. In all honesty, though I will confess I have suffered heartbreak, it will not be the end of me and my heart mends very quickly (probably due in part to the fact that I know that he won't stop caring for me as a friend, even if he did stop caring for me as a girlfriend).
On to lighter subjects! Today I get to go in and re-sign my lease with my apartment people. I do not relish the thought of going back into the office which I escaped a mere two years ago. I may be taking my Paxil early today because I start to feel panic rising anytime I think about the year of stress and tears I spent working there after high school. ... Do I have any period of time in my life that I don't have panic attacks about?! Yes, yes I do. There was that three weeks between Fall Semester of 2002 and Spring Semester of 2003. That was a nice time.
Anyway, I'm off to brave the offices of Delview Properties, LLC and then to have lunch.
Music: None, I fear
Mood: Pretty Damned Good
posted by Meredith @ 1:47 PM
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